I am really wondering what to do. Hubby goes to Iraq this September for a year and I am trying to plan and prepare for where the kids and I will live. I guess I made a mistake by prepping now since Hubby's Mother is upset at me for sharing my ideas with her. Yesterday I brought up the option of spending the year in California, mostly to collect the BAH (housing allowance) and to be closer to my family. Today she isn't speaking to me. She feels like I am kicking her out and trying to get away from her. That is not even close to what was part of my thought process. I even told her a couple times that she is family and I want to make sure she is happy. I know she wants to live with her boyfriend in Arkansas and she may or may not get married to him any time soon. But I think she should have the option of going to him and seeing how it goes. She can make her own decisions and I have thought for awhile that she doesn't really wanna live with us anyways. The kids love her and we love her, but what happens to us? Do I and the kids and MIL move to Texas and make a go of it until October 2010 and get all settled? Do I and the kids and Cowboy go to California and spend time with my family, save some money, and just enjoy being out there for a year? And that leaves MIL to be with the man she loves and not feeling obligated to take care of me and the kids?

I just don't know. It seems like a tough decision and either way I feel like it is too much to weigh and think about. We threw a bunch of stuff on the curb for large item trash day tomorrow. So we are starting to get things organized and thinking about what we want to keep and toss. I just didn't figure in that she would think I am tossing her aside in any way. But I want to do what will be best for my family any way I can. Sometimes being an adult can be tough and tiring. I have a headache. I wanna just go to bed and let someone else make the decision...but I know I can't. Grrr...